My Journey After the First Year Three Year Anniversary June 21, 2018
Three Year Anniversary. This past Sunday was Father’s Day. I told my husband that I wish that I could just sleep through this time of year. We feel so melancholy. I glanced at the clock throughout the day and remembered very clearly the day our family died and what I was doing. This Thursday, June 21st will be three years since they died. So, we will make the pilgrimage to the cemetery to remember our loved ones, let balloons sail high in the sky on their way to “heaven.” We’ll place flowers once again. And cry at the senselessness of it all. My anguish will come when I walk away...
Read MoreMy Journey After the First Year (Three Year Anniversary) June 19, 2018
As the three-year mark arrives of our family’s deaths, I feel it’s been a lot longer than three years since we last saw them; and yet it feels, at times, like it was only yesterday. Our family’s emotional roller-coaster ride is still at times, just that! A roller-coaster ride. I’m sure it is the same way for the rest of our family, Shawna’s family, and Russell and Shawna’s friends, along with Tylee and Blake’s little friends. I’m sure we ponder, still, the shock of it all. To all of you, I want you to know how often we think of you and we pray for God’s peace and continued healing in your...
Read MoreMy Journey After the First Year Post 8 May 2018
I’ve written before about how I sometimes look back through the years and see how God has orchestrated my life. And because I believe that God does this for me I can see His hand in so many areas of my life and how even the seemingly insignificant times of my life have been for a purpose, leading up to this very day. Through the years I have faced many trials and situations that at times I clung to Jesus and other times I got angry at Him. I remember when I got angry at God for not healing our daughter from seizures. Time after time I prayed and begged for her healing. At one point I got so...
Read MoreMy Journey After the First Year Post 7 April 2018
My Journey I’ve written before about how I sometimes look back through the years and see how God has orchestrated my life. And because I believe that God does this for me I can see His hand is so many areas of my life and how even the seemingly insignificant times of my life have been for a purpose, leading up to this very day. Through the years I have faced many trials and situations that at times I clung to Jesus and other times I got angry at Him. I remember when I got angry at God for not healing our daughter from seizures. Time after time I prayed and begged for her healing. At...
Read MoreMy Journey After the First Year Post 6 April, 2018
My Journey I have a confession to make. Here it is, 2018, already. Almost three years since our family died. As I look back and think about the first few days, weeks, months and the years that have come and gone, I see so many things that have changed that I quite honestly never thought would. But, here is my confession. I finally went to a grief counselor! Last December, 2017. Two and a half years later I found I was still struggling with dreams and thoughts that I didn’t want to deal with anymore. Yes, I prayed about it and told Jesus I needed healing in this area of my life, but after...
Read MoreAfter the First Year Post 5 “What If” January 2018
“What If?” We couldn’t have survived this horrible tragedy if it wasn’t for the Lord! We have gone through many trials and sufferings through the years. I didn’t always trust God and there were times I got angry with Him. At one point, I threw my Bible across the room and told God to leave me alone! I’m happy to say that, in His mercy and grace, He wooed me back to Himself. I’m so thankful He did. It was a lonely time for me. I learned a lot about myself, my walk with the Lord, and Who God is. All the trials and sufferings have helped me to grow in my relationship with the...
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