It’s  What I Choose!

Two and a half years have slipped by. My heart and mind can’t comprehend the thought that I haven’t seen Russell, Shawna, Tylee and Blake for two and a half years! It makes me feel very lonesome. It just doesn’t seem real! When I think of how many years ahead that will come and go without seeing them it makes me feel sad.

It is hard work to keep that smile on my face when I don’t feel like smiling. This past Christmas was extremely hard. However, I did find myself enjoying the day. We rented a condo about 45 minutes from our home to spend Christmas week. It worked out well because we could drive back home to pick up our daughter, Rhonda, on Christmas Eve morning, go to church and drive back up. Rhonda was able to stay with us until Wednesday morning. She had to work that afternoon. I was so glad that we could have three days with her.

We joined a friend at his church for Christmas Eve service in a small little town, 45 minutes from where we were staying. It was a small church and the folks there were warm and welcoming. Our friend made a delicious Shepherd’s Pie for us to enjoy. It was a very sweet gesture and such a blessing.

 After the service, we were talking with different folks and someone excitedly yelled, “It’s snowing!” Well, that put a smile on my face. It should snow on Christmas Eve! We had to be careful driving back up the mountain. Not only was it snowing, but it was now dark. We saw 28 deer on the side of the road on the way down to church so I prayed before we drove back up that we would see the deer in plenty of time to avoid hitting them. We drove especially slow and actually only saw 2 deer. Christmas songs were on the radio and the snow was still coming down. Then out of nowhere, in the middle of the road was a beautiful white and very fluffy bunny! I was so happy to see it! I immediately thought of Tylee! She loves bunnies. And the snow, of course, made me think of Russell. He loved it when it snowed. I felt light hearted the rest of the way home and into the rest of the evening. I thank God that He cares so much about us that He even provides a way of letting us know that He has our loved ones with Him, that they are thinking of us and they are not far away at all. It was a very nice Christmas.

Once again Jesus orchestrated precious moments for us to put in our “memory box.” Moments that bring a joyfulness to my heart as I think back on them. How He loves us! How happy I get when I think about how personable Jesus is and how involved He is with the moments of our lives every single day.

Psalm 33:20-22 “We put our HOPE in the Lord. He is our help and our shield. In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His Holy Name. Let Your unfailing love surround us, Lord, for our HOPE is in You alone.” (NLT)