Don’t Waste Your Suffering 

As I read and pondered Matthew 10:18 this morning, I noticed something that I hadn’t before. God is so good to me. Isn’t it wonderful that God’s Word is alive so that every time I read it, I am given new insight into verses that I’ve read hundreds of times before.

“Look, I am sending you out as sheep among wolves. So be shrewd as snakes and harmless as doves. But beware! For you will be handed over to the courts and will be flogged with whips in the synagogues. You will stand trial before governors and kings because you are my followers. BUT, this will be your opportunity to tell the rulers and other unbelievers about me.” (Matthew 10:16-18 NLT)

Jesus was telling His disciples that because they are His followers they would be arrested and stand trial. But as I looked at this more closely, Jesus said, “BUT, this would be an opportunity to tell others, the rulers, kings and other unbelievers about Him!”

Trials and suffering give us opportunities to tell others about Jesus! This truly spoke to my heart! The trial, suffering and unbearable agony we have suffered since the death of our family has given me many opportunities to tell others about Jesus and the “Hope and Healing” I have in Him because I am His child and He loves me.

“I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” (Psalm 16:8)  

When our family passed away we all had a choice to make. Turn from God in anger or run to Him in our complete despair and helplessness. I tell people often that I ran to Him. I couldn’t get to Him fast enough and be held safely in His arms. We stayed focused on Him, because He is our only source of Hope and Healing. God was still a good God. He still loves us. Staying focused on Him every single day since June 21, 2015, was and is the only way we could get through this in one piece and in a healthy way.  I didn’t dare stray away from God. He is still faithful and gave us a peace that we can’t explain to others, except to tell them that this peace is a gift from God. He is still trustworthy. God still has my future in His hands and a purpose for my life. My life will never be the same. I will never be the same. But I’m still here, living this life that God gave me. I don’t want to waste one minute of it. This idea didn’t come right away, of course. We were grieving the loss of our dear family and there were days when I didn’t even want to get out of bed. There were many times I didn’t want to face one more day without my loved ones.

In time, as the days and weeks went by I thought about my future and my life and how it was all going to change. What would it look like? What am I supposed to do now?

I have learned through the years that I can still trust God, even when I don’t have all the reasons why.

“But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because You have rescued me. I will sing to the Lord because He is good to me” (Psalm 13:5-6 NLT)