A relationship with Jesus is a personal journey. To be able to run to Him in the face of unbearable tragedy is the result of spending time with the God who loves us completely. Reading and meditating daily in Scripture, prayer and Bible study are some of the most rewarding ways to come to know Who God is and His promises to us. James 4:8 “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” (NKJV) I find a promise in the passage; If we draw near to God, His promise is that He will draw near to us.

 Why does He ask us to draw near to Him? First and foremost, He loves us. But I think back through the years at different trials I have faced and I think about what my relationship with God was like. I prayed to God about the situation and for the most part, I trusted Him for the answer. Sometime I did get angry at God. I told Him I was angry at Him if I felt He wasn’t answering my prayers like I thought He should. I even threw my Bible across the room one day I was so angry. But I always came back to Him and felt His peace again. Life is one trial after another and I won’t find comfort and peace anywhere else but in the arms of Jesus. God tells us to draw near to Him because He understands that life is a struggle with painful situations. And He so desires to have us go to Him to find the strength we need.  He will be with us every step of the way. Why? Because He wants us to know we are not alone and He desires us to get to know Him and trust Him, no matter what the trial or situations is. And He wants us to trust Him even if we don’t know the reasons “why.”  

I found such a loving, peaceful comfort in the arms of Jesus when our family died. I couldn’t have gotten through it in a healthy way if I didn’t have Jesus right there with me. The answers didn’t come. But it didn’t seem to matter. I trusted God for my future without our loved ones with us.  

When the death of our family occurred, we were paralyzed with grief. But our faith in God was strong enough to know He is still a good God. We rested in Him and received His comfort. We were angry at what happened and in agony, but through our continued walk with God through all these years we knew God was not to blame and in Him alone would we find comfort and peace. There was no one else and nowhere else to go to find the comfort we were seeking. If we didn’t have a relationship with Jesus and continue developing a strong foundation in our spiritual life we wouldn’t have anything to hold on to that would have given us the hope and healing for each day.

Psalm 119:49 “Remember the word to Your servant, upon which You have caused me to hope. This is my comfort in my affliction. For Your word has given me life.” (NKJV)